Don't Ruin Your Love

Well i hoped you liked my poem. If you didn't that ok too.
So let me be truthful to myself and everyone else right now. I think live could get real confusing if I don't get some things cleared up. I don't know who I love right now. I don't love my ex. for sure but I not going to lie and says I don't miss have a boyfriend who held me all the time and kisses. But I don't want to do back to a relationship that only for f**king sex. I know what real love could feel I just haven't falling into my real love yet. I wish I could but there are a few things holding me back. That between me and my boyfriend, even though they may never be solved until he can get out of his situation. I also can't help him get out of his situation either. If only I was a little older maybe I could, but I can't at the moment. So I don't this I well be moved from this stop. If he is still trying to get me through sex and kisses then nothing has changed. I am not up for falling into that sh*t again. It's love or nothing at all. Even If I do falling into the mess I will not start a relationship because of it. Yes even if I cheat and fall into the mess any deeper. Because he doesn't love me and we are just not good for each other, even if our sexuality is..