Poetry

-Stage lights on-
-A girl is sitting at a table, in a restaurant, with her ex. The girl and boy kiss-

What am I doing?
I don't love him
I just remember
the lust
I just remember
being able to be comfortable

It's a lie
Don't things with someone
You don't
Just because you blocked
your heart from remembering
the hurt and pain

-The girl stops kissing the boy. She realizes she has done something wrong, and gets up in hurry-
-When she gets up she sees her boyfriend. He walks way in disbelief-
-The girl rushes to caught up with her boyfriend-

Its not what you think
You know I could never
be with him
And how he has hurt
me

-Light center on the boy and girl. The boy turns around. The girl knows she the only person he trust-

Why would you do
such a thing it you now what would
happen to you if you got together?
I thought you wanted to stay with me
Forever
I told you I would protect you
You don't believe me?

-The girl beginning to tear up and cry, tried to show her pain by holding her chest-

I know what would happen
I have always believed in you
I just wish we had time
to hold each other
To share a kiss

I want you to share
yourself with me

-The girl bent down crying. The boy came and comforted the girl-

I'll forgive you
I guess it hard not spending
enough time with each other
from the beginning
I still love you-

-Stage lights fade out-

Don't Ruin Your Love

Well i hoped you liked my poem. If you didn't that ok too.
So let me be truthful to myself and everyone else right now. I think live could get real confusing if I don't get some things cleared up. I don't know who I love right now. I don't love my ex. for sure but I not going to lie and says I don't miss have a boyfriend who held me all the time and kisses. But I don't want to do back to a relationship that only for f**king sex. I know what real love could feel I just haven't falling into my real love yet. I wish I could but there are a few things holding me back. That between me and my boyfriend, even though they may never be solved until he can get out of his situation. I also can't help him get out of his situation either. If only I was a little older maybe I could, but I can't at the moment. So I don't this I well be moved from this stop. If he is still trying to get me through sex and kisses then nothing has changed. I am not up for falling into that sh*t again. It's love or nothing at all. Even If I do falling into the mess I will not start a relationship because of it. Yes even if I cheat and fall into the mess any deeper. Because he doesn't love me and we are just not good for each other, even if our sexuality is..

Well SOL for Me

mmk well i'll just keep saying whats on my mind even if i pay some time. I am different from the last time i wrote anything to let me share so of my lastest poetry with you.
I call this "Surprises can Arise". This is Act. 6 in a series of stage poems.

-Stage lights on- -A girl is sitting at a table for two alone, waiting for her boyfriend o come met her-

If only we were able to see each other
more
My feelings could than grgow
stronger,
But our talks are never long
our meetings are never within the same
month...
I hope you even show up today

I only want my feelings
to grow more
and become stronger
than what it is now

-The other chair moves and the girl turns to look at it in excitment-
-The girl gasps when she sees her ex-boyfriend sitting down-

what is he doing here?
I haven't seem him in five
months
Now that I have gotten over you
competely
You show up,
But I'll be nice
Nothing to get mad over
If there is nothing lefted
right

-The girl finally turns to look at her ex. and says hello, kindly- -The girl realizes the boy she used to know looks different, more mally and handsome-

-The boy could see his ex-girlfriend had changed and became more mature- -The boy was glad he could get a chance to tlak to her again-

It has been a long time
I have always wondered
how you were doing?
You have the same beauty
you use to have

-The boy leaned into the table towards the girl was a serious look-
-The girl was overwhelmed by his gaze-

What is your business
here?
I'm waiting for someone
to come met me
And it's nice to see you too.

-The boy keeps gazing into the girls eyes-

You hate me
right?
Would you never
take me back,
Even if I have changed?

-The girl still over taken by the boy's gaze, was startled by these question-

It took me a long time
to get over you
You were my first love
My first kiss
My first everything
How could I?......

-Memories filled the girl's mind. Making old feelings appear again.-
-stage lights fade off-

You never know
when old feelings
will come back to haunt you gain
Be strong and go with
what your mind tells you
is right.


Ok, so what do you think of that? "Ha."
This is one no one has seen before.

What Am I Doing?

Its like he is trying to make it like things used to be and I don't want that at all..........
What am I doing I'm hangout and around him trying to stay distant but at the same time we are not just because we have history. I don't know why that matters but I don't want him to treat me like he knows me. I want to can like we know each other but like we have no history at all...Ok maybe that's too much to answer I don't know what i want but I don't want to be back in a relationship with him again i Don't Ever want to Hurt like I Already Have.......

I AM A FOOL!!!

I am being tricked into believe that we had something that worked just because he can comfort me by pretending to be a pillow but its not the truth the relationship can go very far......with just sex and no love

I can't believe he is trying to pull me down so that I go back to being what we had. I know what hurts and I know he hurt me with more than a simple stab but with kisses. As each kiss was given a tear had falling from my cheeks....I don' believe in fate or true love anymore...It's all a lie so that you can get hurt more.

Waiting is a Pain

Hey it has been awhile since i last posted something...many things have been happening in my life for the past few days.
While everyone was sleeping I..................Just joking hehe. Okay things to say, things to say, hmmm.
The words MVA may not mean much to some people but those who know about the MVA know of its evilness. A cure upon those who have to go to this place. Why can't we have a system that works and everyone can be in and out quickly. Why must we suffer at the hands of those who don't really want to help their costumers. What a place of Evil it is. Spending long hours for your number to be called just to be sent to another room or line to wait in, ugh the pain.
I can't explain to those who haven't gone through it what a bother it is. Please build a faster system. Don't we have the smarts to do so.

Cry Now

Well Michael Jackson is gone suddenly.....

Lets have a momment of silence for him.....

Story of Good-bye

Hey sorry for not Blogging in a while. I want to show you a new poem i wrote.

Holding On
Never seem to make it better
I knew after sometime
That you only make me cry

Happiness never did smile on us
Time went by
I thought I could stick it
but you seem to never see my pain
Lonely, I would cry.
Loneliness filled my eyes

My effort to return your smile
Was just killing myself
Pain wasn't my thing.
So holding on was a mistakable thing.

So at this time
We say Good-bye.

Good-bye.

What We Really Need

Well let me start off with a saying....You can't win them all, can you.

The days waiting for a fun day are really boring. So for a little fun I'll mention that in three days it will be Fathers Day. Most Americans give their husbands or their fathers a gift. Such as tools, a vehicle, or even a cookbook. I'll tell you its really a waste. You run around trying to find the right gift with out anyone knowing. Why do fathers get such gifts and on Mothers' Day all they get is flowers, or candy, or a basket of fruit. Not things that can be useful. That's the problem with Americans we don't give people what they really need. Which is a check for 1 million going into their retirement account at the bank not tools or fruit.
In my opinion, if anybody asked what I wanted on any given occasion I would answer them with a sweet smile and say "10 bucks." Ha ha. Yeah. What would you do if a person say that to you instead of "Oh I don't need anything. Don't worry about it." No spare me all that. Get straight to the point. "Hey, whatever you got in your pockets right now is fine with me." I mean people lets be honesty with ourselves we are always going to need something. If its not a thing then its money.
Just a couple of thoughts since yesterday was my birthday. Everyone always asks what do you want for your birthday. The one thing all people should know is that if a person say to ya "I don't want anything," give them money. Its the best gift you can give if you don't know what to get. Cause in the end whatever they use that money for is you gift to them indirectly if you think about.

Catch Some Fruit

Well there isn't much too say or talk about for now

When Life gives you apples and oranges. Why can't poeple just let you make fruit jucie. No instead they say you can't and give you a bunch of different fruit to work with, but you don't want to work with other fruits just your apples and oranges.

Hey not everyone is going to understand this one but give it some thought.

Lock Down...=(

What a day.....Not! So Why do parents put their children on lock down during the summer over silly things. I now stuck with no computer and no cell phone communication. Yes hard to believe when I am here posting at blog huh. Well This is the unsmart thing of them all. My ma left the house with her computer screen still logged in and another thing if I couldn't log on to my screen I have to password to my sister. Man I am really not that stealthy as it seems. Thing is my ma also left my cell phone in the same spot she took it from me yesterday. I think this whole thing was a set up to see if I would do what she told me to do. If i would fall for her tricks. No wrong! This isn't a trick at all the really problem is that parents can't remember what punishment they give there children not one bit after they give to them. Other really life problems are blocking there concentration on taking care of disciplining their children. So that's zero points for the parents one point for the children. We didn't even have to play the game, just sit back and watch the plan fall apart. Why can't children be punish by other means not just getting items taken away. I think I would like a punish of something more like, "hey clean this all up" or "Wipe down the walls and floors". Then I wouldn't have time to talk on the phone or blog on the computer because I would be cleaning. But I would still have my form of communication with no doubt about it. Although who knows the best form of punishment for children or teens. What can a parent do to punish their children? Over the years have parents just given in and decide not to do anything?

Surpise!!!

Well today was interesting! I found out that i will be going to summer school and it starts next week. I know that this is going to be silly but i failed SAT Eng....I know. So my school sent me a notice about when classes start 4 days before registration was due. Also the summer school class is 1 hour everyday for three weeks I'm not sure why its that way but hey what can I do. Going everyday for three weeks i do not mind but the sad part is that my B-day is next week and i have to go to summer school on my b-day. Booo.
Something else that is exciting I found out some new info about one of my friends. It might make a diffence in my life we see. Oh and work today sucked. Two guys at work like me. One has a booty touching problem, the other is learning things from touchy one and this isn't koolio at all. Booo =(. So I think i need to set them both straight I do not think either of them have a chance with me. Smoking isn't koolio and Drinking isn't koolio (so they are both not koolio). It was like sexual harassment at work. I could lose my job over something I really don't want to participate in.

Stupid Silly.....

Hey I was cleaning out my room yesterday. I also rearranged it. Looks awsome now, yea! While cleaning I came across something that I wrote while i was in the 8th grade. It kind of silly. Well its jus straight up silly really. I wrote, "Your Fire, I Am Grass, Whenever you raise flames I kick Your Ass". OK well thats ponder about that for a moment........ Your right it doesn't make Any Sense at ALL I think that maybe it should have been something like "I am Fire, You are Grass, Whenever you raise Hell I kcik your Ass" maybe it makes a little more sense I don't know just a random thought.
If you have any thought about this please leave a comment.

Get To Know Me

Hello everyone. This is my first blog so I want everyone to get to know me before i start babbling about things no one know about.
Well I am Life_Liver. I am a high school senior in a all girls school. No Boys, No Fun Right!! Well life is becoming unimaginably hard and is not getting anymore easier. I don't get out much but when I do I'll make sure to post some pictures. I am a pretty much simple, fun, silly girl *^-^*. If you like weird people then your in the right place ^_^. Ok I'm not that weird but you get the picture right. Well there isn't really a normal for a standard person so this is a place for all unique teens. Interests, well I love manga and anime, music, japan stuff (basicly everything except the food, I never tried it before), and cookie dough. I am always stuck in the house because of my ma but when I do convince her to "Let Me Go" (reminds you of "Let My People Go") I venture to many places around Baltimore. One summer I basicly spent the whole summer exploring the Downtown Harbor all by myself and it was fun. Found some different places to eat, museums to visit (never really got to go), movie theater, great ice cream place and nice looking local Fells Point shops. I was basicly a tourist in my own city. Hey I now won't get lost if I'm trying to find some place downtown (brighter side). Other things about myself Do NOT take me to a Bookstore "Period!". I will become the most happiest person alive if you do. Also you might want to expect to be there for another 30 minutes because if I don't have the money I'm not leaving until i got to read something *^_^*. Yea I know easy to please when it comes to gifts.
Just a heads up on the daily routine for my Blogs. I am never really busy unless I make myself that way. All I have is work to do and that's about it for this summer. Oh Well I almost forgot summer school to if I get my laptop maybe it won't be as boring a summer. Since my ma is the type to not "Let Me Go" I'll be here to give you a heads up about things everyday or every other day. My Blogs are going to be for Teens and hopefully many of you can relate to the things I'll be talking about. So thanks for reading my first blog. Many more to come. ^-^