What Am I Doing?

Its like he is trying to make it like things used to be and I don't want that at all..........
What am I doing I'm hangout and around him trying to stay distant but at the same time we are not just because we have history. I don't know why that matters but I don't want him to treat me like he knows me. I want to can like we know each other but like we have no history at all...Ok maybe that's too much to answer I don't know what i want but I don't want to be back in a relationship with him again i Don't Ever want to Hurt like I Already Have.......

I AM A FOOL!!!

I am being tricked into believe that we had something that worked just because he can comfort me by pretending to be a pillow but its not the truth the relationship can go very far......with just sex and no love

I can't believe he is trying to pull me down so that I go back to being what we had. I know what hurts and I know he hurt me with more than a simple stab but with kisses. As each kiss was given a tear had falling from my cheeks....I don' believe in fate or true love anymore...It's all a lie so that you can get hurt more.